Ask and you shall receive... from someone else.
A few people asked for a recording of my performance this past Monday in Flip Flop and my good friend Aaron from Go Away I'm Reading took a little video of "Jolene."
Thank you so much Aaron. Hope you guys enjoy it. And if you do, let me know. I haven't watched the entire clip yet. I have an extremely hard time watching myself on film and/or listening to myself.
Watching this clip, I cringe at every pound I've gained, every fey gesture I make and every sibilant "S" I utter. I described my video self to Philip a few minutes ago by saying, "I'm a house. I'm a really, faggy house!"
I know it's not that bad. I'm just being hard on myself (don't say it). It's the Bette Davis in me.
On one of her last appearances on "The Tonight Show," Bette Davis told Johnny that, early in her career, when she would watch herself in the dailies, she would cry. She would cry because she thought she was so ugly.
But years later, sitting on Carson's couch after the stroke that left her looking like one of the trees from "The Wizard of Oz," Ms. Davis said that she now watches those same pieces of film and realizes that she was, "the best damn looking woman in Hollywood!"
So, hindsight may be 20/20, but if you're lucky, there's a ton of Vaseline smeared on the lens.
Thanks again to Aaron for the video. I greatly appreciate it.